I miss this face.

This was the best day of my life. Seriously. Hands down.

In Lincoln City, we spent so much time just walking along the beach, holding hands.

This was when we first got there. The first thing I wanted to do was walk on the beach. (I saw him eyeing the bed when we first got there, but no no no. I knew once we went there, we'd be there for a while. I wanted some one on one...on one time with the ocean haha.)






And here, I thought we were taking legitimate photographs for posterity. But no, Mr. I'm 12 years old just haaaaaaaad to give me bunny ears.

I didn't even realize until I got home and he sent these to me.

His camera died within two hours of getting there, so all of our pictures were taken in the same afternoon.





This was the balcony of our super cute room. It was awesome. It was at this little inn, and we were in the 'penthouse' suite. 12 steps away from the ocean. BEAUTIFUL view from our room. Like, crazy beautiful.

This was the view. Holy crap right? Yeah, this was the first sunset we ever watched together, right from our balcony. And every night, we slept with the sliding patio doors open, and the curtains open so we would wake up to the ocean. It was so amazing.

I miss him so much :(

I couldn't even sleep last night from missing him so much. Sigh.

I can't wait to see him soon. :)

My baby.

So, this is my baby. Her name is Rosie.

I was taking pictures of her all day, because I have to get ready to sell her before I move.

:(

She was my first car. I got her when I was eighteen.

I'm going to miss her so much :(

Granted, she's cost me a lot of money, and frustration.

But she's always been there for me as well.

I'm posting these pictures for posterity.
Someday when I'm old and driving like...an SVU or a Prius or something, I'll look back fondly on my Cadillac days...

When this was the wheel I drove behind every day.

People make fun of her all the time, because she's way too pimp for me.

But I'm hers, and she's mine. And that's how it is for better or for worse.

...til now :(

Ooh, another addition to my secret marriage blog ;)

Day 2 of 4 days off! (Okay, 3 days off, I worked from 6-3 on Monday, BUT I erased it from my memory. So it's like it never really happened.)

I bought my plane ticket to Portland today, and hubby and I talked last night about the arrangements. We're going to stay in Tillamook so I can kinda get a feel for the town, seeing as that I'll be moving there in a little over a month. And he's going to show me the house he found. I hope it has a big back yard. I really want an Australian Shepherd. They're such gorgeous dogs...

Anyway, he sort of wanted to stay in Lincoln City again but I thought it'd be a better idea for me to get to explore my future surroundings. I'm such a planner, I have to be able to sort of get a head start on getting my bearings. I'm so nervous to move away from the only place I've ever lived. BAH. I'm excited though. I get to be with the man I love. I just have to keep reminding myself of that. I get to be with the man I love.



The court house is open monday through friday, until 5 pm. And my flight gets into Portland at 11:30 so we'll get to the courthouse by like...2 pm probably. I need to look into Oregon's marriage process. I don't even know if there's a waiting period in Oregon or not. I know there isn't one in Nevada, but SOMEBODY ruined the day we were supposed to elope here. So hmpf.





..............Okay I just looked it all up. It's a little cheaper in Oregon, only $50 for the license, and there IS a 3 day waiting period until the license becomes effective. But that's fine. He can get all the paperwork in by August 2nd, and then it'll take about two weeks for it to all be official, and for them to start giving him BAH, and then he can find our house and I can move up! So we're still looking at the end of August, early September at the latest. I'm excited!



I don't know if I mentioned that I put my notice in at work. August 19th is my last day :) I'm so happy. I mean, I still have to work there for another month, which bites, but I'm going to get out soon, and that is so exciting. They treat us all like crap there, so I'm really looking forward to getting the hell out.



Eeee. I'm excited.

This is the building we're getting married in. :)

I'm such a goof. haha

But, damnit! I'm excited :)

20 days :)

I was sitting at work today, thinking about how I've been there for two years, and I'm making as much as the team members, because minimum wage went up, and now we're all making minimum wage. So I was thinking about how much I hate working there, how much they mistreat all of us, and how I can't wait to be out of there because I've tried to get raises, and it just doesn't happen. Nobody wants to play fair.

So I'm sitting here thinking about all this, and about how I have to wait for the boy to visit at the end of August for us to even get married so he can get the paperwork in, and then two more weeks for all that to go through, then wait for the boy to find a place. And I just got really...pissed off. Tired of the waiting. Constantly waiting. I'm so tired of it. So I texted the boy and told him that on July 30 I'm going to fly up there to see him, and we're going to get married on the 31st, and then I'll leave on the 1st of August. He has that weekend off, and Nikki will be back by then, so I requested it off work. And then I put in my notice for August 19th. Because I want to get the ball rolling. I'm tired of waiting. And the boy said that'd be fine, that he has that weekend off and he doesn't have anything going on, and we'll really get married this time. And then he'll get the paperwork in and I'll be able to move at the end of August like we'd planned.

So, I'm happier. I feel like I have something concrete to look forward to, which I really needed.
My plane ticket is going to be about $200, like last time. I'll pay for that, and he'll pay for our hotel, like last time.

Restless, thunderstorms.

Hello world...I've been creeping about, unbeknownst to you.

I'm on my Mom's computer. I still haven't ordered a new fan for mine, so I can't really use it. I've just been leaving it in Reno, with the rest of my stuff. I never stay there anymore though. I haven't even been to my apartment in four or five days. I need to go back and get the rest of my stuff. The driving to and from work sucks, but it's only about ten minutes more, and it's worth it to be here. I love Carson...I've missed it so much, missed being around people, my mom, having human contact. And now Jen can do whatever she wants; have her addict friends stay at the apartment in the living room, whatever. Doesn't matter to me. Though, I will feel much better once I get the rest of my stuff out of there. It makes me uncomfortable knowing I've got stuff up there still.

I think after work on Sunday I'll stay at my apartment, then pack the rest of my stuff into my car, and then after work on Monday I'll go back to Carson. I have three days in a row off! I'm so excited :) I'm going to go to the library and get some books. And the boy has Monday and Tuesday off, so we can skype!

I don't get to see him again until mid August or so. :(
Boo. I miss him so much...it's cliche, but it really does hurt at times. Waking up thinking he's there because I'm half asleep, but he's not. And my sheets and my pillows smell like him. But he's not there :/

Alright...well I don't have much to say, it turns out.